Devoid

Is there beating in that black ice shroud
That surrounds you
penetrates through
There's no beating heart drum to prove blood flows
about you
within...
Mummified
You blunder through peoples lives
Never knowing the lies
They spin and devise
To trap your beautiful side
your caring
feelings...
Buried alive
By choice inside a facade
I tried to edge past your guard
But it's so very hard
To love a corpses regard
The rotting outwords
Is there thought behind those twitching nerves
which cross you
criss cross you
There's no diamond reflection in your eyes
To frame you
Enflame...
Horrified
To find emotions inside
Traitors right by your side
and wish they would die
when they rise up and sign
an escaping resurrection...
mesmerized
you're pschizophrenically tied
a cold person inside
over ancient desires
you've only a cold blue fire
you're a smouldering heart...
please help me - I've tried so very hard
please help me - I've tried for so very long
please help me - I've tried to reach you
something hurts so much
I've tried
Not to fail you
Please help me...

Julia